somehow my entries aren't friends-only any more. i did that thing ages ago, i don't know what happened. i guess that i'm just going to leave it this way.

It's been a while since I've written anything anywhere, so i figure here would be a good place to start.

I'm still in the same place as i've been for too long now- jobless. It's really beginning to irk me now, I've applied for I don't know how many jobs, been to 6 (count them, 1-2-3-4-5-fucking-6) interviews, and somehow I still don't have a job , even though at least one of them i was very qualified for. Usually interviews are my strong point and this is very unnerving- I've never failed so many interviews in a job search. Usually I get the first job I interview for. I think I've just been somewhat complacent when I've been interviewed, especially for the 2wire job which I should be working at right now. It was such an easy job to get, they're hiring like 500 people, and somehow I totally flunked the interview. I still don't know how I did it, I think the bitch who interviewed me just had something against me, perhaps due to the fact that I may have been slightly arrogant.

What I must not do is give up- I resolve to try harder, to put more effort into my cover letters and my applications, and to make sure that when I do get another interview, I fucking rock their world. The next interview I get I will put every last ounce of my effort and ability into it, even if it's not the perfect job or it doesn't pay as much as I'd like it to. I know I will find the /right/ job, but right now i just have to find A job. At this point I'd take working outside of the IT world, as long as I make at least $10/hr. Ideally I'd get a short contract with one of the IT staffing agencies- that way I can get on their payroll and then when the contract is over I'm on their priority list and also I'll be eligible for a better paid job that actually challenges me.

In other news, we're still riding the train around Brownsville, although we did get off for a couple stops in Hurtington, but we quickly lost resolve and got back in the warm comfort of the train to nowhere. It's not exactly the Orient Express, but it's a train, and it gets me to where I want to be.

I guess I should go. That's all there is in my life right now- the lack of a job, and the presence of the elephant. Oh, and my love life is awesome. I've never felt better about Us, (with a capital U) which is relieving because if I were having doubts about that as well I don't think I'd know what to do with myself.

Love to all. Stay safe out there.

so i buy this car right- good deal:

95 honda accord lx, 2.2L engine, 97k miles, extra clean, in good running condition, verified by mechanics, only problem was the SRS computer was broken so the airbags won't deploy in an accident. oh and it needs new tires and a tune up as well. bought for $3300. not a bad deal, right?

wrong. turns out the fuel pump dies on me the first day i drive it around, that's $290 to fix. at least i hope it's the fuel pump. everyone tells you different things. the guy i bought it from swears blindly it's not the fuel pump. the mechanic who came out to look at it swears its the fuel pump, as does danielle. luckily my parents are funding this car up to the point of $5000, so we're okay on that front i guess.

but it's just my luck that i get a car that has some costly defect from the get-go. so that brings it to $3600, plus my parents are insisting on getting a new SRS module put in ($500) so that's $4100, then new tires and a tune up, $4300. I wonder if i'll end up with the whole five grand or not.

plus my dad promised me /something/, but of course his promises are like Duke Nukem Forever Vaporware in believability. maybe he'll get a clue and actually talk to me one of these days instead of never returning my calls. i've left like 4 messages for him over the past week (okay i'm exaggerating, i've left two, one of which was like 15 minutes ago) and okay he just called me and CRAP i feel guilty because it's all my fault and i'm the bad son not the other way around . i hung up on him i guess and he felt offended, i didn't realize i had offended him. i guess he's going to get me a nice camera or a laptop or something instead now that i have a car. i feel bad, i kind of want to tell him to not bother getting me anything because i don't deserve anything from him.

anyway i feel shitty now and i'm reading danielle's emails from 2004, back when she broke up with her first love, jeff, i guess, and i'm reading some other things as well. it's weird.

later.